Seeing 'her' marry someone else, at first, 'he' could still steady himself with 'his' self-control. But soon, whenever 'his' focus wavered, 'he' would recall the scene of 'her' wedding and feel a tinge of jealousy. It turned out that even after enlightenment, one could still feel jealous. This often made 'him' lose concentration, already affecting 'his' clinic quality.

Then, gradually, these emotional fluctuations grew stronger, and 'his' self-control became strained. Whenever 'he' thought of 'her', 'he' felt a mix of regret, apology, pity, and self-reproach. The sorrowful look in 'her' eyes during the wedding toast lingered in 'his' mind, making 'him' feel increasingly unable to face 'her' or stay in this place.

So, 'he' decided to leave Luoyang. 'He' found an excuse, saying 'his' parents were old and ill and needed care, so 'he' had to return home. Q, though reluctant, had no choice but to let 'him' go upon hearing about 'his' parents. Before leaving, Q gave 'him' a large box of silver ingots, estimated to be at least three thousand taels, enough to buy a mansion and live comfortably for three generations. Q also gave 'him' a carriage and sent trusted aides to secretly load the box and other supplies onto it. Q told 'him' 'he' could return to Luoyang anytime, and 'he' told Q 'he' would consider it. 'He' entrusted Q with a delicate wooden box to be given to 'her', saying it contained a gem to bless 'her'. Inside the box was actually a purple-veined sarira taken from 'his' left bracelet.

During the Mid-Autumn Festival, 'she' asked for leave from 'her' husband's family to visit 'her' parents. Upon arriving at 'her' hometown, Q handed 'her' the wooden box. 'She' received it without much expression and said nothing. Back in 'her' room, 'she' tightly clutched the bead in 'her' hand, shedding a few tears. These were the last tears 'she' would shed for 'him' in this lifetime. 'She' gently wiped away the tears and placed the bead back in the small box, which 'she' stored on 'her' bookshelf along with 'his' gift, the "Diamond Sutra".

'He' left Luoyang and headed north. On the carriage, 'he' began to reflect, feeling 'himself' truly inadequate, not only achieving nothing but also hurting 'her'. As the carriage rolled on, 'his' mind involuntarily surfaced many memories of past lives with 'her', one scene after another, like a revolving lantern. Each scene made 'him' tremble involuntarily.

Because he was aware of destiny, 'he' endured the onslaught of memories, dozens of times more than a normal person, gradually losing control of 'his' inner self. 'He' trembled all over, tears streaming uncontrollably. Finally, 'he' no longer wanted to suppress himself. In an instant, 'he' was overwhelmed by a flood of emotions, eroded by a torrent of memories, and battered by waves of recollections. 'He' sank into the memories of past lives with 'her', tears flowing, overwhelmed by sadness and pain.

End of Chapter 2.